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REST IN PEACE [27 Jan 2011|01:47pm]
Rest In Peace, my beloved Makiveli Boo Boo (December 23, 2000 - January 27, 2011)...Thank you for being the best dog in the world. Mama will miss you very, very, very, very much. Thank you.







I know you're in dog heaven now with Oso and Fiji and Midget. I will miss you. I will always miss you. You've been the best to me, loving me unconditionally...forgiving me when I neglect you...listening to me when I whine about my life and my issues...and yet never asking for more than what I can give...My heart will always have a whole. I will miss you.

You held on till I had my birthday, right? You wanted to give me a good birthday that's why you hang on as long as you could, right? Thank you. Thank you ikiveli booboo...makibooboo, makiveli...maki...salamat! salamat! salamat! Mahal na mahal ka ni Mama!
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Happy Christmas 2010 [25 Dec 2010|11:04am]
MERRY CHRISTMAS, PEOPLE!!!

Nothing beats Christmas mornings with your loved ones. Breakfast (ham, cheese, mustard, bread, chocolate drink) with Ma and Dad was wonderful. There really is something about Christmas that makes you feel less cynical, mean, and selfish. I hope you're having a wonderful Christmas, too!

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And because this is one of my favourite scenes in one of my favourite movies:




That's for you, my not-so secret one-sided love, Eddie. My wasted heart will love you.
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perfectly lonely [15 Sep 2010|09:40pm]

John Mayer - Perfectly Lonely

Had a little love, but I spread it thin
Falling in her arms and out again
Made a bad name for my game around town
Tore up my heart, and shut it down

Nothing to do
Nowhere to be
A simple little kind of free
Nothing to do
No one but me
And that's all I need

I'm perfectly lonely
I'm perfectly lonely
I'm perfectly lonely (Yeah)
'Cause I don't belong to anyone
Nobody belongs to me

I see friends around from time to time
When their ladies let them slip away
And when they ask me how I'm doing with mine
This is always what I say

Nothing to do
Nowhere to be
A simple little kind of free
Nothing to do
No one to be
Is it really hard to see
 
Why I'm perfectly lonely
I'm perfectly lonely
I'm perfectly lonely
I'm perfectly lonely (Yeah)
'Cause I don't belong to anyone
Nobody belongs to me

And this is not to say
There never comes a day
I'll take my chances and start again
And when I look behind
On all my younger times
I have to thank the wrongs that led me to a love so strong

I'm perfectly lonely
I'm perfectly lonely
I'm perfectly lonely (Yeah)
'Cause I don't belong to anyone
Nobody belongs to me
(It's the way, it's the way, it's the way that I want it)
 

Bigo na naman. Laging epik failure. Ayoko na. Suko na ako. Ayoko na.
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[26 Jan 2010|12:08am]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, JAE JOONG!!!!


Good gracious, you're getting old like me! I love it!! ^___^

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^__^ [23 Jan 2010|03:03am]

Tweny Nine.


Wow.
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hopia, mani, popcorn [01 Jun 2009|10:23pm]

+ Wow! I can't believe it's June already. We are half way into the year, people! Before we know it, christmas carols will be raiding the airwaves. WOW! Unbelievable!

+ I'm unbelievably cranky today. Must be because I miss him and I haven't worked out since Thursday. I need endorphins!!!

+ I hope he's not too busy on thursday AND friday. Really miss him and want to spend time with him. We celebrated his birthday by having breakfast at Delifrance, hours before I had to leave for Boracay.

+ I'm a bit tanned after spending 3 days in bora. Bad timing though since it was rainy. didn't get as dark as I wanted to. But! I was brave enough to wear a tankini haahah! Next year, I will don a two-piece suit. Aja!!!

 

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maxxed out [17 May 2009|11:55pm]
...taking the plunge head first, eyes closed, heart open...if i get injured, i'll charge it to experience.
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pacing... [16 May 2009|02:20pm]
I feel like Im floating on air. I don't want to jinx this, whatever we have. I cant wait to see you on Wednesday and validate this crazy connection.

Let's hold hands and jump.
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Adele - Chasing Pavements [30 Apr 2009|01:34am]
I've made up my mind,
No need to think it over,
If i'm wrong I aint right,
No need to look no further,
This ain't lust,
This is love but,

If i tell the world,
I'll never say enough,
Cause it was not said to you,
And thats exactly what i need to do,
If i'm in love with you,

Should i give up,
Or should i just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere,
Or would it be a waste?
Even If i knew my place should i leave it there?
Should i give up,
Or should i just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere

I'd build myself up,
And fly around in circles,
Wait then as my heart drops,
and my back begins to tingle
finally could this be it

Should i give up,
Or should i just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere,
Or would it be a waste?
Even If i knew my place should i leave it there?
Should i give up,
Or should i just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere

Should i give up,
Or should i just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere,
Or would it be a waste?
Even If i knew my place should i leave it there?
Should i give up,
Or should i just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere
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Papa N naman eh....1 [08 Apr 2009|03:41am]

I had a dream about you. You called me on my mobile and told me you will be watching for guys hitting on me, that they will have to answer to you. You said you should be the only one.

You cannot believe how happy I was when I woke up. I had a smile on my face.

This feeling is so stupid and setting me up for a heartache, but I say, bring it on.

- - - 
Avril Lavigne - Why
 
Why, do you always do this to me?
Why, couldn't you just see through me?
How come, you act like this
Like you just don't care at all

Do you expect me to believe I was the only one to fall?
I can feel, I can feel you near me, even though you're far away
I can feel, I can feel you baby, why

It's not supposed to feel this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me, are you and me still together?
Tell me, do you think we could last forever?
Tell me, why

Hey, listen to what we're not saying
Let's play, a different game than what we're playing
Try, to look at me and really see my heart

Do you expect me to believe I'm gonna let us fall apart?
I can feel, I can feel you near me, even when you're far away
I can feel, I can feel you baby, why

It's not supposed to feel this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me, are you and me still together?
Tell me, you think we could last forever?
Tell me, why

So go and think about whatever you need to think about
Go on and dream about whatever you need to dream about
And come back to me when you know just how you feel, you feel
I can feel, I can feel you near me, even though you're far away
I can feel, I can feel you baby, why

It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me

It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me, are you and me still together?
Tell me, do you think we could last forever?
Tell me, why

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[25 Mar 2009|09:06am]
Do you ever feel like busting a move even when you dont really know how to dance? i feel like i will combust if i dont dance. damn this lady gaga song! Arghhh....my head keeps showing me dancing like a spinning top.

- - -

I got my first paycheck after not working for some time and i really wanted to cry. My AM friend asked me why I agreed to that compensation package. Arghhh....I want to cry.
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Francis M...RIP. [06 Mar 2009|11:06pm]
Mark knocked on my door earlier and told me Camille sent him an sms saying francis m already passed away. A few days ago we were just talking about him and now he's gone. I really thought he would get better. wasnt he scheduled for a bone marrow transplant some time this month?

Anyway...so tonight, after Tayong dalawa, SNN came on and they did a feature on francis. I decided to watch it...start pa lang, nangingilid na ang mga luha ko. sayang kasi eh. Sayang. Ang tingin ko sa kanya, more than the artist, rapper, celebrity, businessman, eh mabuting asawa at tatay. Matagal na sila ni Pia, madami silang anak na mukang matitinong mga bata. Para sa kin, yun sha eh. Matino at mabuting tatay at asawa. Sa libro ko, kung ganoon ang isang lalaki, bilib ako sayo. Kaya siguro ako iyak ng iyak. Di ko maturo eksakto bakit ako naiiyak.

Parang may nakasaksak sa puso ko ngayon. Di ako nangingiti. Masama talaga ang pakiramdam ko. Hindi ko sha kaano-ano pero ang sakit talaga, affected ako. Hay.

Makes me think about my life and my relationship with people.

- - -

Francis M...three stars and the sun....Rest In Peace. Your soul will live through your music.
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Semantics. [26 Feb 2009|01:15am]

Semantics is such a sexy word, don't you think?

- - -

Mara's shares of origami blog has inspired me to try writing again. I mean, it's nothing major, just short phrases strung together to make my thoughts more concrete, more tangible. So I created a separate blog for my exercise:

Exorcising My Demons

- - -

I wish I can be a good writer like some of the people on my flist, in dongbang`s fanfic fandom. *sigh* They make it seem so easy. I know it isn`t, but I love how they make it seem so....effortless.

- - -

Im in a funk. Since May, I have never been lazy going to the gym. Kahapon at ngayon lang. Im going through a phase again. Like I want to jump off a bridge and never resurface kind of funk.

- - -

Powerhug juseyo!!
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I am a fangirl. [22 Feb 2009|01:53am]

OMG I had so much fun today! From a quickie lunch with bestie to coffee/convo/tattoo-watching with ex-Mrs. Kim-Lee to screaming my head off watching Pop Icons with Nog and Rach! Mannnn!!! I am officially Christian Bautista's Girl friend ahahaha!!! Yes, kami na!! Hahaha!

Xtine ♥ Xtian

Hanggg cuteeee!!

I enjoyed the concert. The production was done fairly well, from the choice of songs, the talking bits, the segments. Waahahah....Xtian dancing is just so much fun. Ang tigas ng katawan mo, babe.

Whaahaha...ohnoes, looks like I have a new fandom hahahah!!

This is why I've been avoiding watching Xtian in concert.

Hephephep....wait! Papa Piolo.....thank you for singing "kailangan kita"!!! Waahahhaha....ang ganda ganda nung song na yun! Gomawo!!! Pero Ive decided na kami na ni Xtian, sorry had to decline you haahaha!

BALIW NA AKO. YUN NA YUN.

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Hellooooo Pinoy Showbiz, welcome this fangirl! Wait....let me rephrase that....Hellooooo KAPAMILYA Showbiz...^^

- - -

Xtian ♥ Xtine  
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Sana Feb 25 na!!! [19 Feb 2009|02:17am]
"I don't get jealous. I can't be jealous. I've never been jealous. Ngayon lang."

~ Miggy Montenegro, You Changed My Life


WINNER AMPOHTAH!! Sana Feb 25 na...ppaliiiiii!!!!
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exercise in semantics 01 [12 Feb 2009|07:54am]
+ We lose our religion because we're too lazy to keep it.
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Happy Birthday, Booboo!!!! <333 [24 Dec 2008|02:27am]

It's still the 23rd in some parts of the world so....

Happy birthday to my baby, Makiveli!! 7 years old yahoooo!!!! Let's have more years together. Umma loves you! <333

 


with my love booboo <333
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this was begging to be edited... [19 Dec 2008|11:40am]

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errr...did I get the "dongbang lovers" correct?
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[01 Dec 2008|10:55pm]

I vow to try harder.

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Yes, we can. [06 Nov 2008|02:56am]
[ mood | hopeful ]

I was teary eyed when I watched his speech. I am not American, and probably never will be, but he makes me hopeful.

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